what I wanna be when I grow up..

I want to be a homemaker. There's is nothing I want more than to fulfill my role as a wife and do the cute things I should be doing. But ya know what? I have to work full time so we can have this cute house we do. And we are barely able to keep it, thanks to this crummy economy and I'm just sick of it. Complaining doesn't do anything to help. I KNOW. But that's how I feel.

I want to get up early and make breakfast for my husband. I want to clean the house during the day (NOT on the freaking weekend, when I should be playing) and have dinner waiting on the table when he gets home. I want to have and raise a family here and I want to be the mom they see every day and who teaches (and disciplines) them at home.

Every family is different, but I don't want to be different. I want to be the cookie-cutter wife (with added reading time, because I can't, and won't, give up my books!) who can do everything without a sweat.

But how the frick do I get to that point? Do I work full-time to get my husband through school so he can get a high-enough paying job to support me staying at home to do these things? Do I have him work full-time, supporting me getting my degree and the high-enough paying job to support him getting his degree (the much longer option) until he can support me staying home to do these things?

Cody and I have been married for a glorious almost-four years. We've gone on a few vacations, purchased two homes and four (or more, probably) cars, raised many chickens, and have loved each other. But we look back on these past almost-four years and we wonder, what have we been up to? We feel like we've just been playing house and working. Spending more than we've made and just hanging out.

The point is, I don't care who caused the economic problems we're having, I just want to find a legitimate work-at-home job that will help me fulfill the role I have dreamed about my whole life. I want to be able to support my husband by taking care of the things I don't have time to currently. I'm not happy with the direction my life is going because I don't know where it's going. I don't see the light at the end of this working-for-rest-of-my-life tunnel.

Isn't there a scam-free way to work from home these days?

AHHH!

I am so freaking happy right now... It's only hours early, but CODY IS COMING HOME TO ME EARLY!! His flight gets in around 1am tomorrow morning, so I'm staying up to wait for him! He was originally coming home tomorrow afternoon.. I've missed him so very much more than I expected! I'm probably going to cry when he pulls up the driveway, which will ruin my plan of looking amazing when he walks in the door, but I DON'T CARE! I miss him so much, I'm bursting with excitement and I know this day is just going to draaaaaag ooooooooonnnnnnn foreeeevvvverrrrr! Henyway, this is kind of how I feel right now! TEEHEE

P.S. I'm eating Wonka's Giant Chewy Nerds .. What more could a girl ask for? (besides not being at work!!)

Babysitting!

I babysat my wonderful little nephews on Wednesday and it was great! Here are some photos from the evening.. Don't worry, I babysat everyone (Parker, Jayden, Hunter, and Kyler) but Parker and Hunter were the only ones who held still for more than 5 seconds for my camera! They're so awesome!

celebrating the season..

I decided that since I had some time (while Cody plays Uncharted..) to update my blog! In honor of this glorious season upon us, of course! I have both Tuesday and Wednesday off next week (in exchange for working the weekend..bummer) and so I plan on going up the canyon to take some photos of the leaves sometime. I'm so excited I finally found my camera charger cord!

In other news, Cody is gone for two weeks starting Monday for training at work. He is going to Houston, so I will definitely miss him! I plan on playing with friends and having fun, but I just feel bad for him because there won't be much for him to do while he's there because he will be in classes until at least 5pm every night. All I can do is hope he'll find something fun to do, right?

I've been sick, but I'm getting better finally! It's been almost two weeks, so it's about time! All that's left to be fixed is getting my voice back. I'm still a little raspy, so it could be worse. I'm just glad it's not the SWINE.. *dun dun dun* Well, that's enough for now. I'm going to get back to updating all of my other blogs now!

Toodles!